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man slayer by ashley nicole rockhold 5-12-05
in the night,in the snow find the light.in the lonesome dark fight for survival.i peirce,a scream,take down your enemy.a
slice like the speed of light.zooming down the path unstopable.frozen solitude,unable to hide from the past.weilding sword
slaying all the memories away.i can't see your face no more.its covered in ruins.it rains of blood.everywhere i look i see
ghost.all i know is pain.all you know is how to kill.a blade peircing through me,your dark eyes metting me.close to me,scent
of death overcoming me.vanguished spirits and endless guilt.you made it rain,rain of blood.moving incrediably fast killing
the rest.in the dark fight for survival.weild all the pain away.close to moe,silent empty whispers in my ears.who's side are
you on anyway?exressionless.emotionless.feirce swipes killing the rest.destroying those who dare to trespass.heres your ticket
to hell in the hands of one person,a murder.in the dark find the light.in the cold find the warmth.weild all your memories
away.a rain of blood continues.he zooms down the path unstopable.
ghost' in my mirror by ashley nicole rockhold 5-19-05
faraway on the other side.to much time has passed by.my soul has been trapped on the other side.i remember you from another
time.the moonlight brings out the lonely wolves.extend your attention.try to draw from your body's spirit.as the fighting
continues theres no hope left for healing.i wonder how much longer my life will flow?the wind talks to me.i pray,but theres
no reply.soul trapped on the other side.i miss you.i know i'll never see you agian.the blood continues.i can't see you anymore.your
trapped on the other side of time.i see myself stirring right back at me.i shake uneasy.i brush my hair comming about my life.i
came near her.when i touched her she disappeared.when i had another dream and she reappared.i talked to her but she wouldn't
respond.so i woke up and spent another day at waste.through the day i thought about them.
faraway by ashley nicole rockhold 5-16-05
air polluted,so many emotions surround me.through these eyes i see many things.i feel the air escaping my lungs.thanks
to you i'm able to feel this pain.whispers in my ear.walking through the night i could feel a cold chill and i loved to stir
at the moon.then i felt you wrap your arms around me.i felt my heart beat agian.so faraway but somehow still close.i can see
the light through your eyes.i looko up to the sky and hear the leaves rattle.across the lands i seen the burnng sun.even though
your gone your everywhere to me.listened to the wind and gave myself over.far o n the other side i await for you.faraway on
the other side of time where time doesn't manner.maybe some day i'll get to see you agian.
phantom by ashley nicole rockhold 5-20-05
phantom cry in the night.i pray but theres no reply.i lye torn to shreds.out my window i stir at the moon.tears of blood
fill my eyes when i remember you.the old wolf howls.phantom voice calling out.i cry,no reply.everywhere i look i see you.i
miss you.where are you?your pushing me over the line.doesn't your heart beat to?i sleep.i wake.i wish i could remember what
i have forgotten and forget what i have remembered.i'm so bored.it seems like the same thing everyday.my strong heart beat
turns into heart break.shadows engulf me.i know all to well about pretending to be strong.your lips move but i dont hear no
audio.you left me for dead.look what you've done.phantom cry calling out into the night.phantom haunting me.what do you want?found
nothing into today and not a god damn thing in yesterday.i'm trapped in the fantasy of the past.tell me what do oyu want.phantom
calling out to me.i call your name but it doesn't ryme.the sun outlines the dark and the stars fade away.i think all we need
is alittle more starlight in our heart.phantom please tell me whats wrong?why don't you go home?glid me silently to the moon.apart
from the present day i ocntinue.two worlds colliding can only mean disaster.why do you look so hurt?phatom cry.glid me silently
to the ocean.fly me to the moon.take me away.glid me to the ocean.phantom cry calling out.fly me to the moon.
don't tell me by ashley nicole rockhold 5-10-05
don't tell me what i am.don't tell me what i'm not.don't tell me what to say.don't tell me what to do.don't tell me whats
wrong woth me.don't tell me what i need.don't even bather telling me what you think.i'm fed up with you and everybody else.go
away and leave me alone.i'm tired of your constant rescentfulness.if you can't except me then thats jsut to bad.don't tell
me what to do.don't tell me what i am.la la la la la.i'm tired of being hurt and controlled.my tohughts slip right through
my hands and my heart stops.i jsut don't care anymore.good-bye dear sweet misery.
moonlight angel by ashley nicole rockhold 5-11-05
everyone is killing eachother.i don't know how youo expect me to react.i cannot stand to hear the words from you.i wish
i oculd see the good to it all.i daydream for someone to come and take me away.i sit alone in the dark stirring at the moon.i
can't believe you left jsut like that.the pain is justt to real.i can't bare living.this is not where i belong.my wings feel
so heavy.close my eyes and disappear and see you.the choas and the blood shed spill everywhere.i'm running fast.i can't forget
the past.you wouldn't hold me.i said goodnight and you said goodbye.if theres another world out there then i hope its for
me.with you by my side i know i can live.someday i'll fly away but for now i'm here for you.i'll protect you from the dark.i'm
here for you.
kikyo by ashley nicole rockhold 4-27-05
cry,trapped on the other side of time.bleed just alittle more.tell me a story thats from your heart.survival is the key
to life.your voice is as gentle as the moon shinning down.bleed just laittle more.what did you say?you are my everything but
i'm dead to you.i still know myself from my reflection.cry alittle more,just alittle further.theres a dark place that recides
in my mind.talk to me my only friend.blood mixes with the rian.so far from death,so far from living.the darkness is bright.i
watch it all leave me behind.now that i've come so far,i refuse to give up.i'm falling apart.i feel so souless.i'm nothing
but a shell of some broken memory.broken smile.hold me,love me,hate me,teach me,show me,hold me.theres no eternal rest for
me.jsut finish me off already.what are you waiting for?you tell me to just let go and return to my tradgic fate.i can't.underneath
it all i love you....
i'm the other you by ashley nicole rockhold 4/26/05
sleep never comes wasy these days.can you please repeat the question.tell me what you know dear god.listen to that stranger.why
must i be so frail?this can't be real.pollution in my lungs,i slowly die.sorry but i must decline our visit.once agian the
sky is painted with blood.the sun sets.dressed as one of us it haunts everyone.in my dreams i see a lonely wolf running fast.when
i see you smile i live.when you grief i die.i caught you before you reached the ground.i can't catch my breath.i will not
abandon you.come and catch me if you can death.my heart shoocked when i seen how they killed everyone.the gravity on my shoulders
hurts so very much.listen to the wind.you remind me of fall.your hair reminds me of winter.rough on the edges and smooth inside.i
rest my head knowing that you have and always will be mine.i see her trapped on the other side.she's prisoned deep inside
her temptational suicide.i'm the other you.i want to bring her back here.she's shattered and torn.she cannot hear you...
the living dead by ashley nicole rockhold 4-28-05
heaven to hell.light to dark.happy to sad.broken to fixed.open to closed.confident to skiddish.the sky is painted with
red.the seven stars begin to fade just like our love.the wind carries the echoes from the lsot souls.the old stray cat continues
to wander.my head hurts.i cried so much until i finally got a reply.hell to heaven.dark to light.sad to happy.broken to fixed.closed
to open,but always skiddish.what it means to be happy,to smile.stand alone in the shadows.remember what its like to be happy?do
you remember the day we first met?smils often fade.do you tihink you can tell the difference between good and evil? two sides
to everything,a dash of hope.alive to dead.hyper to sleepy.enlightened to sullen,but always skiddish.my heart beat turns into
heart break.smiles often fade.take alittle break from it now.dead to alive.sleepy to hyper.sullen to happy,but always skiddish.i
think about it all the time.i can't forget about you.i love and hate you at the same time.i watch time leave me behind and
i gotta ask do you remember me?.... la la la na na nah da da la la.......
gaurdians by ashley nicole rockhold 5-21-05
in the night when sleep overcomes all of your worries and you can hear the echoe of your heart.deep in sleep,what do you
dream?the moon shines down softly.next to me i can hear you breathing.the moon shines down on your pale skin,looking just
like moon dust.i watch over you.i wonder what you are dreaming about.i can smell summer comming.i'm wide awake once agian.can
you feel my presence?my spirits draw to you.tiredness feels my chest.i wish i could dream to.i'm with you.there is a scar
upon my heart.i want to fly away,but i can't.souls shine in the dark.you want to see the sun,but you can't.you cannot see
the dark in the light.living that wayi s no fun.silently sleeping i can hear you breathing.you behing to wake.yawning as the
sun rises.then i fall asleep watching the stars disappear and feeling the nice warm current air.i can feel my heart beating
hard and slowly and you watch over me.....
refraining over and over agian by ashley nicole rockhold august 25,2004 9:20 p.m. central standard time
the wind has away with time. your eyes have away with me. i look into your eyes trying to figure out your mystery. i'm
alone. i need something. i need someone. i cry, i prey but theres no reply. isn't anyone needing me? i search looking for
a reason to live. the wind blows in my hair as i watch the days pass by. everytime i get near the light you push me away.
isn't there anyone that truely loves me? and when i look into your eyes i see your pain refraining. it feels like there is
no one like me, no one that understands me and the way i feel. in the four corners of my universe i can't find a reason to
live. can't you tell that i'm hurting? can't find a reason to live, don't you see my pain? can you see my tears? all i wanted
was someone who loved me. can't stand to see that girl looking right back at me. she looks so sad. mirror shattering, blood
leaking, heart pounding, thoughts flying, who am i?; what should i do? all i wanted was a place in everyone's heart. i look
into the mirror and i can't stand the person i see. how have i made it this long? how much longer can i go on? why does everyone
have to be so cruel? its so hard to keep an open heart. when will my time come? am i destined to fail? i try not to cry. i
glance at the moon. i close my eyes and i see you. please don't leave me. my heart is like an shattered mirror. why do you
resent my feelings? you can't just leave me here all alone to fight a losing battle. only if i could forget, i wish i could
stop caring, if only i could let go of the past, then maybe i could be happy for a sec. my heart is bleading... please someone
save me... although the link to my heart has been closed it still hurts.... who is it that i see when i look into their' eyes?
i recall a time when you loved me. i feel a pain that begins to refrain over and over. if i could allow myself to stop refraining
do you think i could actually reach paradise?
a new hope by ashley nicole rockhold auguts 29 ,2004
every breath it feels so hard to breath and the air is filled with so many emotions. i can't see it anymore. the light
seems so dim to me. i can't understand anything anymore. my heart beats slower and slower by the minute. i close my eyes and
i see you. why must you hate me when i've did nothing to you? i look into your eyes and i feel my heart become real warm.
you hide your true feelings and i cry. i hide my tears from you. only if i could tell you how i really felt we wouldn't have
to refrain and suffer. theres an hole in my heart and it feels so empty. all the scars in my heart take toll on me forever
. i remember when we first met it was a beginning of a new story. everyone of my tears have become frozened in solid graditude.
when you called my name, when you reach for my love, we both need some time alone so we can heal alittle, so we can cry alittle.
all touugh my last light in my life failed now that i got a new one im going to try my best and not give up. i know how you
really feel so you don't have to say a word. if we could learn to stop being afraid of being hurt that would be nice, i just
want to be with you. i wake up and your never near but when i close my eyes i see you. when i turn around your always right
behind me. when i look into your eyes i see a painful shine like mine. if only we could be togather then we wouldn't have
to suffer. it feels like a never ending dream. maybe i am just dreaming. everytime i get near you, you turn your back on my
all for the sake of your own reputation, can't you see i feel the same way as you. we all need to learn to face our fears
but its not as easy as it sounds. i will cry a hundred times if i have to if thats what it takes to be with you.
something is missing by ashley nicole rockhold august30,2004 4 30 a.m
i look into your eyes and its like i suddenly realize a dream to remember. when you grab my hand i feel a pulse that is
to soft to be real. if only could learn to breath wouldn't that be something? your smile is enough to make my heart beat agian.
when you take my hand and tell me it'll be alright it makes me feel so strong. please don't ever leave. how could i ever
not want you here in my heart? memories of a miserble past from long ago have become hazy since you have entered my life.
you don't have to say aword i know how you really feel. when you speak your words seems to be to true to my heart light its
so unreal. i want to be with you forever.i don't want to be alone. i don't want to cry anymore. all i want is to be near you.
everything you say, the things you do, i believe in you.i try to forget you buti can't.your haunting me.your everywhere to
me. i don't know what i would do without you. i hear my heart beat, such a soft heart beat its unreal. please someone tell
me what to do. where do i go from here? can you please tell me who i am? i can't reconize the girl i see stirring right back
at me.she's like a complete total stranger to me now. if theres such a thing as eternity then i want to be with you even after
death.i'll never be able to truely forget it all but at least theres a light in my heart that shines so bright. i reconize
the way you make me feel.i know the truth is that i love you.everytime i want to tell you something stops me. can't you tell
just by the look in my eyes, the tone in my voice that theres something going on between us? i've came to many conclusions
but theres no denying the truth. the way you always recent my feeling makes me cry. it hurts me so much that we can't be togather.
i don't hate you just myself.thers a light that shines so bright inside of me.someone please tell me who the hell am i?i would
walk across fire for you.i would give my life if only to see you happy.if theres such a thing as eternity then i want to keep
on loving you.
the cold hearted ones by ashley nicole rockhold august 31,2004
what keeps me here? why does my heart beat with such strong emotions like this?i look into your eyes and i see nothing
but a mirror and a cold hollow soul.you make fun of me.you make me cry.you don't nothing about me so who the fuck are you
to judge rather i'm beautiful or not?if thats hows its gonna' be then you can go to hell.you my be able to see through me
but you'll never be as strong as i am.you don't know what its like to me so shut up awhile your ahead.i hate you for all my
suffering.its so hard to keep an open heart exspecially when the people you think you know turn on you.i just wanted to live
happily with you but i can't help but to hate those who don't except me for me.i shout out on the top my lunhs in anger every
night.anymore i cry myself to sleep.my heart is full of warped emotions,i look into your eyes and i realize that i love you
but you hate me.your heart is closed.i just thougt that since we are so much like eachother that we could be partners.and
when you say them cruel things to me it seems that it really is true all though it ain't.can't you see my sorrow?don't you
hurt to?i just want to be your friend.i tried to be with you but you leave me no choice but to hate you.i have the habbit
of hating everyone even myself.when i hear them dark words my heart pounds as my hands shake and my breathe trembles.everytime
i see you we end up fighting me.i remember how i smacked you.its just i was so hurt that you hated me.my heart is being consumed
by dark hatred and a demon pushes its way through my heart.go on and believe what you want.i wish i didn't care.all these
thought are flying through my head.i won't give up.i got to at least try.i believe that there is something waiting for me
and through time i have met so many faces.ones that shine and ones that hurt.your the one who's going to have to russel the
sorrow of guilt tomorrow when you wake because me and my friends will never be wrong togather.so who cares?thats your own
problam now.your the one who pushed me so your pain doesn't concern me.even if your sad or mad doesn't give you an excuse
to enflict pain on others.lah la lah la....don't tell me how to feel,what to say and how to think.through the darkness there
is a light that shines bright inside my eyes.your heart is to cold to dee it though but if you give it try i know your heart
could beat once agian.i hate to hate but theres nothing i can do about it.hah theres only one conclusion i am either insane
or maybe i'm just dreaming this right now but either why our love will never die.i'm sorry things couldn't be different for
you so now i say my last good-bye.
i want you to be happy by ashley nicole rockhold
through the light there is a darkness that peirces in the corner of my heart.through the darkness there is a light.the
light in your heart is enough to make the tears start to flow.all the things you say there so different from everyone elses.i
look up at the sky and i wonder if ther is anyone else out there like us in the deep reaches of space.i hear your voice and
my heart pounds with a hope that maybe one day that we can be togather.look my in the face and tell me what do you see?everytim
eon the days i want to see you your never near.my heart break turns into heart break.in my heart theres a world that is waiting
to be discovered.who am i kidding we'll never be togather for you hate me in every way.i'm sorry im not beautiful or real
super cool like all the other girls.i think maybe i need some time alone.if only i didn't care i could be care free and happy.but
i don't want to be an incarnation of an dead priestes.please someone tell me who am?how should i react to everything?what
should i do?where should i go from here?something is calling me.i feel the gravity of it all.your face is haunting me.i just
want to with you embraced in your arms.i just want to be able to understand.i just want to see clearly.i just want to live.i
just want to live.i just want to be hapy.i just to be alive and with you.don't you understand this feeling because i don't.everytime
i get self confidence i am knocked down by the waves of the dark.the breeze is so strong.the wind blow in my hair as time
passes by.i feel my heart breaking.i feel my eyes turning cold as i begin to walk away from it all.i want to but id on't want
to forget.i'm so confused.it's not my fault i didn't get to choose the way i shall live or look.please tell me that it will
be okay,i cry.i prey but theres no reply.i just wanted to happy with you.its bad enough that i don't smile but you rarely
smile yourself.will you please ake my hand?i wish i had something to believe in.even if i have to take the long way i want
to be with you.i want to see you smile,i want to hear you laugh,i want you to be near,i want to be with you?don't you understand
what i'm saying?your everywhere to me but tell me do you see me?
there is a hope growing stronger by ashley nicole rockhold
theres a hope that is silently awkening inside this damaged heart.i my be alone,i may be useless but as long as there
is a thing called time then i won't let go;i won't give.i won't die that easily.i look into your eyes and my heart beats in
many ways of hate and love.on the days when you take my hand i get fustrated and i fall to my knees ready to snap and yell
at the top of my lungs but i'm afraid that you owuld laugh at me if you seen me crying.maybe its just all in my head or maybe
i'm just blind.i hear your voice,i see your face,i feel the warmth from your body.why do you ty to stop loving me?why should
it be all about your cool reputation?is that really love?i cry out your name,i reach for the truth in your heart.carefully
hidden there is my love.i wonder sometimes am i dead?am i sleeping?is this all a dream?if thats true then please don't wake
me.please let me rest in peace.someone take my hand and tell me it'll be alright.i hear your voice,i see my horror,i feel
the wind blowing in my hair as time stands still for me and you fade of into the future i can't reach.theres a strong streingth
that no one,not even me can see.there is a dream that is waiting ti come true.theres a future that is waiting to be born.go
on and believe them that theres nothing wrong and there right.its only love that makes you right.why do people have to be
so cruel.if we could let go of out hate and greed then we could be happy.i don't know what but somethings wrong.maybe its
you and.naybe its me.i tried drowning myself out with music,i tried sleeping all day but don't manner what i do i can't forget
you.this voice of mine seems so true.the blood that stains from my tears are beginning to fade away into the past little by
little as you stand by my side don't manner what they say.when you touch my hand its suddenly like i understand.please don't
leave me?do you feel the same way?can't you see that i love you?tell me do you see me?do oyu want to be with me?do you think
i'm pretty?
this wasn't meant to be by ashley nicole rockhold sept 6,2004
i don't want to loose you,i don't want to live without you,i don't want to die without you.there is a love that shines
so bright inside this heart.love brings a very lonely lonely heart.this tears are full of blood as time passes by and i have
been seperated from you.i cry out your name but theres no reply.isn't there some way i could be with you.i feel like im still
stuck in the pass and i just got done watching you walk off into the future without me.i reach for you but i'm pulled away
by the waves of time.my heart beats for you,my heart longs to be with you.if theres such a thing as eternity then i want to
be with you always.i cry as everyday goes by since we were togather,its been so long since if seen you.i am trying my best
to go on but i don't think i'll make it by myself.there is a hope that breaks out into nothing but unsteady beats of heartbreak.i
want to see you agian.i want to be with you always.it feels like that you have left me behind all though its no one but my
own's fault.i glance at the sky and i begin to cry as everything reminds me of you.its not fair.its so cruel to do this to
something like this to someone.theres a star that moves silently across the outer space that shines bright inside my eyes.hearing
your voice for only a few minutes a week isn't nearly enough to make me feel at home agian.lately my life has been nothing
but a rainy sunday.god please ain't there anyway i could become part of my time with my friends agian?i cry,i pray but theres
no reply so,i cry.......there is a light that beats inside this silent soul.this loneliness its killing me.please someone
send me a reply,send me a sign,tell me please that everything will be okay and hold me in your arms and never let go...i fall
into the dark and this time i'm afraid i can't get out.i cry out and all i hear is a lonely echoe of it.this tear drops i
shed are for you.i don't care if i have to cry a thousand times if that what it takes to be with you.its so confusing and
its all drowning me out.glimpses of the past always flow through my head.i wonder should i threw whats left all away and so
do away with myself.i hate to think like that but how else do you exspect me to react?i pick up the the blade but i just can't
do it for some reason.i'm so scared i don't want to go through tomorrow without you.it feels like this wan't meant to be.i
don't want to live without you.if only i could find my way through the dark,someone please call me name and save me from this
evil barrier.if theres such a thing as tomorrow then i want to spend it with you.how have i made it this far?how much longer
can i go on?i cry but theres no reply.i feel so alone and my heart feels so empty.please don't let it be true that we can't
be togather anymore.i can't live without you.my only light has been taken away.i tried to stop caring but it didn't work
couldn't wake,couldn't sleep by ashley nicole rockhold 4-6-05
i layed my head down.i closed my eyes,but i couldn't sleep.i got up and through my jacket on and hopped in my cat,but
it wouldn't start.so i walked instead.when i reached the god damn store it was closed any way.god what a waste of time.half
way home it started to rain.so i layed back down wide eyed.went to school,but i couldn't stay awake.trying to figure out the
confusion and cure the loneliness.i stay at eze..i listened while the teacher continued to bitch.by the end of the dya i got
expelled and just walked out.barely made it home alive and got to hear more bitching.all i could hear was the chaos in the
background ofmy thoughts.i oculdn't sleep.edventually i passed out.had a weird dream and i couldn't wake.dinner was done,but
i had no will to eat.i could hear my heart beating barely.i'm sitting here all alone.look at me.what have i become?what did
i do to myself?what have you done to me.even when i'm awake i still feel like i'm dreamin'.i want to wake so badly,but i'm
so tired of it all.my frustrations build and i fall.i had failed you.i continued dreaming.the loneliness eats away at my heart.i
couldn't wake up and i couldn't sleep..
free from you by:ashley nicole rockhold 5-26-05
i got nothing to lose.without you i got nothing to lose.i look around.i'm tired of repeating myself.i continue to walk
on.every breathe is wasting.the sweat runs down my body and i feel so hot inside.you reject me once more.i'm so use to it.you'll
get whats coming for you.guy of my dreams,nothing but a fleeting illusion.all these feeling i feel,and you don't care.all
live brings is pain.when my body was frozen and wounded i didn't let you win.i didn't let you take over.i didn't let you take
me in.i didn't beg for your help.eyes of yours,i can't resist.i feel my ghost crying out.i'm finally free from you.i broke
out of my cage.i have my life back.how many times have you told me that you hate me?how many times have you told me that i'm
ugly.i don't care.go to hell.i got my friends.the darkness is my place.you didn't take me in and thats ok.i didn't need you
anyway.thanks foro making me the only one.there are otehrs who love me.i don't need you so,fuck off.the blood finaly stopped.your
eyes sparkle.lumanios light surround you.how many times did you tell me?i knew so,why did you have to remind me everyday.i
made you feel my pain and now your the same,how does it feel to be like me?tell me,how does it feel to be like me now?are
you so different now?without you guys,i got nothing to lose.now,i'm going to drink my medicine and wish my pain and worries
away.my friends don't go away.don't worry i'm okay.i remember all the shit you've done to me.i can't forget.now that your
like me tell me how does it feel?it wasn't enough to kill me but now you got to look at me.i fly on a ballet of broken dreams.i'm
free from you now.your the on beneath now.i laugh out loud.so tell me why are you looking so sad.you were the one laughing.i
told you what i wanted,but you didn't care,so i left you behind.i finally made it.i finally flew away.how does it feel,without
you,i got nothing to lose.you like a caged wolf now.it seldom comes up.its like a bad penny,it always comes back.soon it'll
fade away once agian.i may not be as good as you,but at least i'm young and free.without you i got nothing to lose....
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